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The Agony of Writing
By Brad
R. Cook
Writing
is the hardest business I know. We might not have to go to school for decades
like doctors, or pass some test just to start writing like lawyers, but few
careers tear apart a person emotionally as writing does.
First
comes the stress. Trying to remember every rule the English teachers passed on,
keeping track of all the little grammar rules, plot points, subplots and more.
Heck, just trying to find the time is a challenge. I envy songwriters; they can
finish in an afternoon or maybe a day or two, but a novel takes months, maybe
years. Time spent stressing about everything from point of view, voice, pacing,
to the question that dogs all of us - is it any good?
That
doesn’t even begin to approach what it does to a writer’s brittle exterior.
Writing a book is an emotionally taxing endeavor. It’s like baking a cake for a
year or more never knowing if it will actually turn out the way you originally
intended. (they rarely do.)
Beyond
the book, there is even more stress, doubt, and unknowns. Will I get an agent?
Do I need an agent? Will this manuscript ever see the light of day? Is it
award-winning, a bestseller, and should I even keep writing if it’s not? These
are just a few of the questions that spin endlessly through the mind of every
writer I know.
That is
the one thing on our side – we are all in the same boat suffering from the same
addiction or disease – a need to write. Writers, seek each other out, we live
such solitary existences in front of a computer that would much rather be on
Facebook or Twitter. But put two or more writers in a room together and the
electricity starts to flow. Take solace in the fact that we are going through
the same emotional pain. Need advice, look to any of the masters, they went
through it too.
Every rejected
book brings questions. You know the book is good, but something, maybe even
something beyond your control has stopped this book’s journey. It can be
maddening, to rewrite or start anew?
But
even an accepted book brings a mountain of stress. Is there enough promotion? Do
I have to blog tour? Will anyone buy it? Will the rest of the series even see
the light of day? Is this a good cover? If I don’t make the Times am I even a
success?
To top
it off, writing a great book is no guarantee of success. What is – no one
knows.
The
pain of realizing your first novel, with years poured into, will never make it
to the shelf is followed by the acceptance of having to write another book.
This can lead though to having written a couple of manuscripts and wondering if
anything you write will ever make it to the printer. It’s a never-ending cycle
until that one novel makes it, and then… come a whole new set of worries.
All of
it, though, leads to the really big question - with people reading less comes
the knowledge that we are in a waning industry with an uncertain future.
After
reading this you might be rethinking your chosen career, but I’ll let you in on
three little secrets – It’s hard, so that only the best make it. You are a
better writer than you think. Your next book will always be better!
Sounds
crazy but it’s true. The reasons agents and publishers are so picky is that
they have to wade through thousands of horrid works created by anyone who, “had
a great idea for a novel,” but not the dedication to learn the craft. Then
hundreds of really good manuscripts that aren’t quite right for a menagerie of
reasons. Finally, they find a diamond in the pile and that is the one that
makes it. This ensures that our movies, video games, and culture are the best
they can be. Many people might argue that last point, but just think about how
bad it could be… Sparkling Zombies at war with Werebears… actually that doesn’t
sound that bad…hmmm. *takes a break to jot down some notes*
You are better than you think you are – how
do I know, because we are always hardest on ourselves, and we’re impossible to
please. Writers are horrible bosses to themselves, critical to a fault and
rarely sounding any praise. If you’ve spent time in workshops, webinars,
critique groups, or any of the many opportunities out there, then you know what
to do. It’s just a matter of putting everything you’ve learned into a single
book.
The
next book will always better – this is especially true for new writers. The
first book is where you make all your mistakes, the second will still have some
issues, but after that the quality starts to rise. Each new book benefits from
the combined mistakes and experiences of the previous ones. The only real
mistake is clinging to a novel and not moving on to write an even greater one.
Note: You
should always Revise, Submit, and Repeat. But once you’ve exhausted your
avenues, try writing a better novel. You’ll be surprised – it gets easier, it
gets better, and it starts to sound like a real author wrote it.
We’re
writers. None of us are alone. Thousands of people are going through the very
same thing – just watch Twitter on any given day.
If you
can learn to love rejection, disappointment, stress, anxiety, anticipation, and
crushed egos it will help you on the road to publication – but we didn’t even
cover what happens when the reviews come in… AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Let us
know your horror story or crushing blow in the comments.
Brad R. Cook is a historical fantasy
author and President of St. Louis Writers Guild. Please visit www.bradrcook.com or follow me on Twitter @bradrcook
St. Louis Reflections http://www.stlbooks.com/B009271-1211-51/Review.aspx
I need to master dialect, it is my weakest skill.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, forget the sparkling zombies but I could go for a good werebear story. That reminds me, I started Shardik years ago after devouring Watership Down but got distracted and had to return it. I need to finish that one. He is one of the guardians of the beam after all.
All very true. And when your book attracts some attention and begins to get good reviews--some even unsolicited, by people you've never even met!-- that's the first payoff. Then you know you must've done something right. And when your book starts to sell and you get proceeds of your own sales and a royalty check, as you say, AAAAAAAAAH. Still waiting for a big one, though.
ReplyDeleteI definitely suffer from the am I good enough syndrome. I constantly wonder if what I write will grab an agent and/or editors attention. But I think it's that struggle that always makes us strive for better. If we are always happy with what we write we would never improve it. We all have our strengths (and weaknesses) but if we can play to those strengths and work on the weaknesses I think we will all be better off for it :)
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